I’m on my way to the first temple in Skyward Sword.
I just saw G watching me…that was kind of cool :D.
Derek showed up today for class. That was unexpected.
Two weekends in a row being busy, I’ve had enough.
I was going to play Skyward Sword, but there’s a movie on, so no game tonight.
I was also informed that I’m moving again. Not out of state, but we are moving.
Back to the movie.
My mom heard a new song the other day, and told me I had to listen to it. Well, with my awesome Google skills, I found it. And let me tell you, I’m glad I listened to it. The second verse about killed me.
I listened to the song after I wrote All’s Quiet. Here’s one thing I wrote:
I’m tired of watching my dreams slip, watching the way to get to them disappear.
Here’s part of the second verse of the song:
Life is hard, it didn’t turn out like I hoped it would be. And I don’t dare to dream, if dreaming leads to this.
It’s a great song. It’s by Superchick. They’ve got some awesome songs. This one is called “One Breath” and it’s on their album that they’re making right now. But this song…yes, it’s our life right now.
As excited as I am about getting a job, I have the feeling that that’s it for me. I know, I know, it’s not. But, I have nothing to work towards anymore. Like I said, I have no passion anymore.
Writing. Writing is my passion. I want to write a book. Just one. I just want one book published, and on a shelf in a book store. I know book store are becoming out dated, but I don’t care. That’s what I want.
Writing. Writing is my passion.
Everything will work out to be just fine. Just take life five minutes at a time.
I just got done with my first half of class. I’m at break right now.
Darn you partner! We got 12/25 on our first assignment. And now, he has no case for the CD. He wraps it up in paper. Why didn’t you just turn it in without a cover?
I tried to let him have some responsibility, but now, I’m just mad. Yes, he did give me what I wanted, but I know nothing about this band…I don’t think it’s even a band.
I know everyone in this “band” so I’ll just go to them directly.
I don’t know you guys. I’m just mad.
But Heather is picking my up at 6 today, and I might go with her to get her tattoo (depending on if she got the appointment or not). Tomorrow we’re going to see a band she’s promoting. Sunday is church and then home.
And Monday is the start of Skyward Sword!
Alright, now I must go write this week’s posts.
I sent a message to a very well-known Christian music mixer and I talked to him about what my negative teacher says about the music business. And you know what? He replied back! I was so excited. I was also excited when he told me my teacher was right, that the music industry is as bad as he says it is.
Why was I excited?
It gave me a reason to quit school.
I told God that if I got a job I’d quit school.
Two places near me put up hiring signs.
So I applied. If I get a job, I quit after this quarter.
- First of all, I have been wanting to quit for a year and five months. But I never got a job.
- Second of all, I’m just not happy. I don’t like school. I never wanted to go. And now, I can get out! (Hopefully).
I never thought I would be this excited to quit something in my life.
In other news, I beat Twilight Princess.
Definitely my second favorite game. It came so close to being my favorite.
I freaking love that game.
I love how dark it is, but I also love the emotion. The game play was awesome too, and the storyline. The storyline was, oh Lord, SO good! I just love it all.
I’ll be away this weekend, but when Monday comes around, Skyward Sword will be played. Oh yes, it will be played.
That is all. Back to my popcorn.
Yesterday was a quiet day. Mom and I left the apartment at 7 and got to the lawyer at 8, and sat down for an hour. Turns out, her car might get taken. And I might have to quit school.
I talked to a friend of mine, and she said she would come and get me to take me to school. That’s very thoughtful, but I don’t know what’s going to happen.
And on top of that, Mom is upset that I don’t have a job. It’s not my fault no one hires me.
I told God, and I’ve been telling God, if I get a job I quit school.
- On one hand, I want a job so that I can quit school.
- On the other, if I do get the job, and I do quit school, that’s it for me. I can see myself staying at this job…forever.
I used to have passion. A passion for writing, a passion for singing, a passion to go out and be a merchandise manager. I have no passion anymore. I don’t want to do anything, and I don’t see myself doing anything. It’s been like this for a while, but being in this situation is just making it that much more prominent.
I’m tired, you guys. I’m tired and losing. I’m tired of not being good. I’m tired of watching my dreams slip, watching the way to get to them disappear.
Nothing is happening. Except bad things.
I can’t find any hope.